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November 17, 2008

JLGH IS A FUCKTARD!
( Reason : himself know ) >:(

Bestie lost his phone... Which happened at his very own house.
The thing was that he placed his phone on the dining table inside the living room and left his door opened while he went to cook dinner.
And next thing was he realised his iPhone went missing!
What's heng? His Apple iPhone Cheena eh lor, arbo MERRY XMAS IN ADVANCE~!~!
Don't you people think he sibeh kum gong... I already told him confirm is tio stolen when he called me saying his phone play hide-and-seek with him.
He didn't believed me until... The rest scolded and laughed at him. Lalalaaa.

Tomorrow needa head to Raffles hunt for satchel type bag, then to Bugis and then chiong back Hougang let him go back home get stuff and book in to camp.

And everyone, please don't be mistaken. *We* might look like an item but we're not anymore. We officially broke off a day after our 37th months together... We're still learning to let go at the moment. So yep :)

I miss DDR, O: but I'm no pro laaaaaa~ How I hope to learn SSR. Ermmmmmmm.
*Maybe pull bestie go tomorrow*

Madagascar 2 out already! So fucking ko ai! ~
I like to move it move it, I like to move it move it, I like to... MOVE IT MOVE IT :x

Last thursday I was singing songs to myself while lying on that sleeping pig's arm because I thought he was already fast asleep.
... !#$%^&* He wasn't.
Requested me to sing another round when he booked out. WTF. WTF. WTF.
I think other than mine really close friends of primary schooltimes, his the first to ever hear me singing. Lol

I asked him to give me tips for the singings. HAHAHA.

Saturday before we metup with his 2 bunkmates, we went hunting up and down, low and high for that very Coach satchel. But... Disappointing. The strap was long in actual fact and it didn't suit me at all.
Then a tote caught mine attention but! But! But! He said totes didn't suit my style!
*Cries like an infant*

So forget it! I'm going to hunt for my aviator sunglasses tomorrow! No searching for bags anymore! (Doubts self)
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XMAS IS THE TIME WHERE I CAN SUCK PAPA'S WALLET DRYDRY! Muahaha so... *Mumbles evil plan to self*
That's Jeslyn for you. What a relief your all ain't my parents right? Bleai-

Piggy fast asleep with his mouth open widewide.!.! How unglam.
IF A FLY GOES IN, I'M NOT SURPRISE. Oink.
How much you treasure me, changed for me, love me, pamper me, did for me... All these I understand deep down in mine heart.
Time will fade away your strong feelings and by then, you will ask yourself. "Why did I fall for sucha girl?"
Maybe in the past, people would say we're not compatible. Say that you ain't fit for me. Now, it is me who don't fit you.

Whenever I feel terrible, irregardless is it because of my heart or stomach or whatever... You're always there for me.
I still remember, when I was having mine chicken pox, you came to accompany me, knowing I was lonely. Despite the quarrels we had all these years... You're still a great boyfriend.
I may not speak about your good, but I very much appreciated them.
Sometimes when I think about the way of how I treat you right now, I feel like crying out loud. Thoughts of slashing myself too.
But I know you know, Jeslyn has became stronger emotionally now. So it's hard to see me crying already. :)

At times, I still think of the 12years sister that I've lost. Our friendship was so fragile when I thought time was equivalent to the strongness of our bond.
Honestly she's the only one whom I treated wholeheartedly as a sister, trusting her and never suspected her never thought of what she might do behind my back. And the only one I've NEVER betrayed, and it is very much true.
Memories of us often flashed pass my mind.
And I can say that... When I knew of what she did behind me... It felt as if someone has took a chopper and aimed at my chest.
Even now, once in a blue moon I would cry over this matter. I know I'm silly. But losing her was a big impact to me. She is one of the reason why I've came to become sucha lousy person now.

I think I can never get to trust a person as much as I trusted her. Not anymore in this life.
Girl, don't you know how much your words weighted to me? Words can kill a person, didn't you hear before?
YOU WAS THE ONE WHOM I TREATED LIKE A BIG SISTER AND... THAT WAS WHAT I GET FROM YOU IN RETURN. THANKS TO YOU... I CAN NEVER WALK OUT OF THIS DARKNESS.

A special sorry for someone... Whom I mind quite alot.
If you just happen to passby mine blog, wish to let you know I was not fooling around.
Don't know if I meant as much to you as much you meant to me...
But just no fate. No fate.
I don't want to be wrong anymore. I'm letting go.
Eventually, you would understand what I'm thinking all these while. Hopefully.

Pampered at 04:47 *

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